Hi, I die regularly.
Holy mother of pearl it’s been a month since I last blogged. I’d say my life is mundane, but a lot of shit has happened over the last four to five weeks and now I finally have the time to sit down and write a longass entry about all of it. Maybe I’ll have time to flesh out a new layout, but not too hopeful on that at the moment.
I turned eighteen back on May 26 and the very first thing I did out of the house that day was buy alcohol. Seven hours later, a mildly tipsy ol’ me was dragged into an English lecture whereupon I fell asleep and conked my nose on the bloody desk. That weekend I went out and voraciously attacked the gayest street in Sydney - without a certain somebody who was in bed when I called her at 1AM and told her I wasn’t planning to go home any time soon. What’s that thing called again? Oh yeah…planning…maybe I should be slightly more efficient at that.
Absence of e-cup boobies set aside, it was a lovely night - I drank like a fish and ended up amusing myself in the humping of a telegraph pole and post office box close to the city harbour. The cab fare home was $72 (yeah, shoot me, anyone?), but it was better than taking public transport at half past three in the morning. All in all - a fun night.
I came out to my father two or so weeks back. Let’s re-enact the circumstance, shall we? You can portray me, and I’ll portray my twat of a father:
Setting: Driving home from dance class one Thursday. Grim conversation has ensued.
You: Well, I’m not heterosexual.
Me: What do you mean?
You: I’m gay.
Me: What do you mean?
You: … [significant pause] I’m ho. mo. sexual.
Me: Get out of the car. Out.
You [getting out of the car]: Fine.
Cue the physical fight once I got home, and me thinking (nay, knowing) that it was possibly the most stupid, random, idiotic decision of my life. But at least it’s out in the open. Even if he’s being a bitter ass about it. Conservative military-background Vietnamese fathers are full of fail. He hasn’t worked for the past six months and now says he will no longer support me after this coming weekend - he’s getting me that laptop and mp3 he’d promised since 2004, then I’m going to get a job if I want to stay under this roof. And since my relatives are all jam-packed and whatnot, I’m going to have to get a job. Hurrah, financial independence. Hello world, how are you? My father is a twat. But never fear, determination is here!
My first semester of university finished two weeks ago, and my exams finished last Friday. The next five and a half weeks will be spent sleeping when my insomnia hasn’t kicked in, cursing my insomnia when it’s 7AM and I can’t sleep, sending out a CV anywhere and everywhere and crossing my fingers that some place will hire me, and bumming around the house cursing men down to the day they were born (recently was in a relationship with somebody, but then things crumbled because he couldn’t juggle myself and academics, the twit - but more on that later, when I feel more in a “Hi, I’m feeling emo, I’m going to rant about the break-up” mood. Don’t get your hopes up, though…).
So, I’m back, kids! Cover your eyes.
[#] Aisling, on June 19, 2008:
Your life is so dramatic! :o Good for you for coming out to your dad! I am super proud of you. :D Even if you are now impoverished. :P
[#] Belinda, on June 19, 2008:
Sorry I couldn’t make it to your partay! But I’m glad you had a great time. Sucks about your dad. What’s up with crappy Asian fathers? My own has sucked for majority of my life (long-term unemployment FTL) and I know another who’s basically the same. Now I have to add yours to the list. Ugh, I don’t understand why people make such a big deal over homosexuality; it’s not like you’re doing anything harmful like stealing or taking drugs. WTF.
But yay, financial independence! I hope you can get a job soon, and just get the hell out of there.
[#] Jen, on June 19, 2008:
I rival you at dying regularly. ;) But…! I don’t think I ever got around to wishing you a Happy Birthday, did I? I had major stuff due the day after your party — but hey, I slept at 4AM! — so sorry I couldn’t make it!
I have the impression (from my Viet friends) that Viet fathers tend to be more traditional and what not, so I suppose, in that sense it figures why they’re so anti-homosexuality, but then again it also is the 21st century hrmm. Might be a long shot, but hopefully, he’ll understand :)
[#] Amanda, on June 19, 2008:
I’m still highly disappointed in your actions Xuanneh. Did you at least get your cocksleeve though?
And like I’ve said: good on you for coming out, and that idiot (boy) can suck my female cock.
[#] Sue, on June 22, 2008:
Wow you’ve got courage! Too bad your dad didn’t take it too well. It’s good though that you have the determination towards achieving financial independence. Go Xuan, go!
[#] Maggie, on June 23, 2008:
Happy belated 18th birthday! Lol..
I’m a bit behind on my blog-rounds.. due to UNbearable amounts of procrastination. Haha.. :P
Awesome you went out and had a good time ^^
And sucks bout your dad (don’t have too much experience on that but know that its a suckful situation =x)
[#] April, on June 25, 2008:
Father = twit.
At least you came out to him but holy begeezers, he sounds like a total doodle head and a half! >=[ I’ll strangle the cat for you if you like ^_^
[#] alexis, on June 26, 2008:
very pround of you for coming out. on the bright side, it really could have gone way worse.
[#] SassyGirl, on July 18, 2008:
There’s no good way to come out to your parents. None. My friend did it while in the middle of a screaming match with her mom about her alcoholic behaviour in first year. I guess she figured since her mom was already mad at her, she might as well throw in another reason.
The truth is, Asian parents will never take it well, no matter what. It’s just not ingrained in them. My friend’s mom ended up praying to the Buddha to save her daughter from “evil.” Yeah.
On the bright side, you need to be financially independent sooner or later, and there’s nothing wrong with starting now. I personally love being financially independent from my parents (for the most part).
[#] Feilisha, on July 18, 2008:
Congrats with coming out to your parents. First step towards a more enlightened life; they must accept it because what else is there to do?
University seems all to overwhelming for me. Get all the rest and sleep you deserve dear!
[#] James, on August 6, 2008:
Wow, didn’t realise I was such a twit
As if you couldn’t do anything more to make me feel worse about myself.