I sound like a teenager
That may be because I am a teenager, but that notion aside, when I think about everything that’s happened in my life since the last time I blogged, I genuinely feel as though I’m going to end up sounding oddly teenyboppery when I record everything on here. But, here goes!
So I haven’t blogged since … late September (crap, I actually had to verify that - bad Xuan, very bad). Mostly it’s because my life’s become so routine that whenever I find something I’d like to blog about, the motivation for it goes poof by the time I actually sit down and log in to Wordpress. These days, it’s just uni this, uni that, no dancing this, stress fractures in right foot that, holy shit I have a significant other this (see what I mean by teenyboppery?), crap it’s complicated that, uni this, uni that, insomnia this, insomnia that, etc. I seem to have the time, but not the motivation. I think Amanda should donate her near-daily blogging routine to me.
Recently, though, I’ve found that friendships aren’t all they’re cracked up to be. I lost a girl friend of mine over the fact that I went into a relationship (long story short, the dude person [Thanks, Amanda] I’m seeing went out once with her best friend months ago, and everything wound up complicated and crumbling), and I realised that if the relationship hadn’t been the catalyst for our fall-out, then something else equally explosive (or, possibly, even more so) would have been it.
Surprisingly, it didn’t affect me emotionally as much as I thought it would, although she did say a few relatively nasty things (i.e. “You always knew [her best friend's name] was more important to me than you! And you wonder why I’m angry!”). I suppose it’s because we, as friends, had been drifting apart for months beforehand - to the point where, by the time the friendship actually went down to the drain, it was almost expected by both of us. Hmm.
So that’s my “Hey, let’s be a little existential and philosophical” moment for today. Feel free to tune in for later episodes.
[#] April, on November 6, 2008:
Well then - sounds like your life is incredibly interesting! Hit an all time top-of-the-charts soap opera!
I’m sorry to hear about the loss of your girlfriend, I really am but if she has decided to leave you simply because your significant other originally went out with one of her friends - she’s a douche!
[#] Chien Yee, on November 7, 2008:
Finally! I’ve been waiting for your post since then too (:
Anyways, true friends are hard to find nowadays. I quite lost two close friends last year because both of them went into a relationship, had a fall out, and then blamed me (idk how I got into their picture).
[#] Amanda, on November 7, 2008:
Ew, teenage angst, stay away, stay away! I wouldn’t touch that period of my life with a ten foot pole!
Reply: That’s the second time in as many days that you’ve mentioned ten foot poles, Amanda. Is there something you’re not telling me? ;P
[#] Veronica, on November 8, 2008:
I think everyone kind hits a rut every once in awhile. Life sometimes gets a bit boring. You just gotta try to spice it up however you can. Deviating from the norm just once in awhile helps.